He’s only mine for a short time. He’ll be an adult in the blink of an eye. But right now, he’s all mine.
I pick him up when he’s hurt, I cuddle on demand and I smother him in kisses until he’s giggling with his eyes closed.
I read the same book, over and over. I dance and play when commanded.
When he’s naughty and his eyes brim with tears, I give in and hug him that bit longer.
When he slips his hand into mine and holds on tight, it fills me with pride. Because he’s my little boy.
These moments we have are short-lived. The world will change his innocence and trust, and I can’t always protect him- try as I might.
He’ll start to confide in friends more than Mummy. And I’ll be replaced for another person in his life, who he’ll love with a burning passion.
And one day he’ll turn his cheek the other way because he won’t want that kiss for fear of being labelled.
So right now, this is the moment I want to hold onto.
It’s just the two of us. He’s my everything, and I am his.
“What I like about photographs is that they capture a moment that’s gone forever, impossible to reproduce” Karl Lagerfeld.
As much as I love using my camera I am by no means an expert. So along with Heather Neilson we set out to capture my Son as he is right now.
His personality, his cheekiness, his need to explore and learn and his unassuming need for love.
I can take a basic photograph but trying to capture a story isn’t exactly my forte, and that’s when a professional needs to step in.
As an award-winning photographer (working in London and California), Heather manages to not only capture these moments, but she has the ability to build and gain trust within moments of meeting a child.
By the end of our session, it was near impossible to take a picture of Little London because he was following Heather around like a lost puppy.
He was so comfortable and relaxed in her presence that he wanted to be by her side at all times- he had a new friend.
But there was no mistaking it, Heather managed to gift me with precious moments of my Son. Her photos managed to tell a story. Perhaps not to you, but as his Mother each one manages to portray a different personality trait and flood my body with memories and moments we’ve shared.
He’ll be my baby for a lifetime, but I’ll only be his best friend for so long. They flee the nest these little ones.
But these photos will always be a frozen moment in time for me. Something I can always sink myself into when I need that warming hug from my little boy.